Sunday, February 22, 2004
haiz. today was damn boring!! i always feel lyk this on sunday evenings. i always feel tt i've wasted my entire day. haiz.. tml got chemistry comon test. i havent studied for it yet! got history assignment due tml. not yet done! e-maths homework. not yet done! wat in the world have i been doing the whole day?! i dunno. i onli remember looking at srk *droolz* and er.. eating durian. er.. tts about it. hee.. i tot the results were coming out on saturday but nadira was saying tt it was on friday. oh no! one less day b4 doom! i dowan it. i dowan to see bad results. i flopped my oral. my paper 2. and my paper 1 is not usually very good. arghh! thinking about all this gives me headaches! it now almost 8 pm and i'm not even half way through. i hate sundays. i lurve saturdays. although yesterday was not one of those lovable saturdays. i'm whining! now i know i got to rush. do homework. study. [oh yah. i still haven bathed.] bathe. and wash the dishes. i still feel lyk slacking. tts so lyk me. it explains my grades yea? haiz. i dowan to go to sch tml. first three periods are english. she's gonna do some public spekaing thing. i hate public speaking. all the topics i get. i can nv speak. i remember my last yr's topic. "wat i'm gonna do during my december holidays?" and "how many kids i wanna have in the future and y?". oh puhlease! at tt time we havent even sat for our exams and she wants us to think about the holidays?! and about the other topic. i wanted 2 kids. but now.. i changed my mind! i dun even wanna get married! first u get into a relationship. next u get married. have kids. den ur husband leaves u for another women. so y bother?! i couldnt tok more than a few lines. and my dearest teacher claimed tt they were interesting topics. dot dot dot. wats so interesting about them? i'm pissed! tml still got double period physics. haiz. i'm trying my best to listen. but i always fail to do so. WHY? i hate it. i got tuition but it doesnt seem to help. i need physics. i dowan to get a f9 for my o's! who wants to? i need help? but i dunno how. my classmates are aso not listening. who am i to ask? my ex-classmates from other classes are all so self-centred. they dun really understand my situation and dun really help. some mite even think i'm lazy and am always seeking for help. [no offense if u read this] its either tt or we've drifted apart. is there any kind souls out there to help me? i'll be indebted to u for the rest of my life. =( guess no one will be ever able to hear my prayers! sobz. haiz. guess i betta go and bathe instead of grumbling and whining! *wipes tears* lolx
